the sichuan's 7.9 earthquake hits the newpapers and headlines like mad today.
it is indeed something really serious and bloody.

i can say it's a bloody incident which no ones wants it to happens of course.
but who can prevent natural diaster?
i doubt there's no 100% prevention to it.

they comes as and when they like and goes off in a cool way
leaving behind dead bodies and lonely souls.

trust me, take a look at any papers on the streets.
the photos are gross and bloody.
heads without body, bloods and everywhere.

but is it true that no one can really tells when will the natural diaster arrives?

i dont really think so that way.

afew days ago,
news reported that 10millions of toad or smthing frog lookalike moves
house and together as an army, they cross the roads of china.
this certainly caught my attention and at that point of time,
the news was just saying that like due to the hot weather, they're moving
to somewhere better.

probably at that point of time, people tend not to think that far yet.

but today. when the earthquake slashes the headlines,
the toad article was once mentioned again, this time round.
they then realised that it is actually a pre-diaster arrival signal.

does anybody realise it when it was reported days ago?
not only when things happened.

so does it mean that it is useful by detecting any pre-diaster signals
given by the nature?

i think it is really useful.

just like how the news quoted.

if an analyst is able to be observant to notice that during rainy days,
the sky is fire red
and animals with 4 legs will start to behave differently and panickly,
often wanting to leave the cages and fleed immediately,
and those crawling creatures will all start moving house.

and yes indeed, before the earthquake strives,
animals in the zoo behaved differently and wild.
elephants using their trucks to bang heavily on the cages and stuff.
which brings shock-ness to the zookeepers

this just proven smthg: some signals that something is going to happen.

and if analyst is observant enough to notice all these and take it seriously,
maybe there may be some preventions? hmmmmm.

it is indeed strong that animals has a strong instinct to detect
when will a diaster arrives.

because they dont have what we humans have - ability to talk
and IQ.

but in exchange, they have real strong instincts towards their environment.

so it is so definitely important to be able to notice of our environment
and react to any weird behaviours by our fellow animals.

so let's all now start to pay more attention around the environment.

we can stop natural diasters from coming, but somehow we may
come up with prevention from having it worsen the situation?

for those that dunno what im chanting about, do flip today's newpapers
and watch the news.

and do keep a lookout on the toad's article. it's is really interesting
to see 10millions of toads waiting to cross the roads.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

this is so bad. LOL

RING RING RING.

something to declare over here.

1. it's not an EMO post.
2. i'm not pointing to anybody like i ALREADY said.
3. im not trying to hint something
4. dont drag my dear friend down just because i typed somebody's name
over here.

LOL

the post is just like 论文.
it's just like you writing a composition.

im just

1. expressing something out
2. explaining why i always bug her. LOL! cos she say i always flood her inbox.
3. expressing my view on smthg.

if not all of you gona die from the daily stuff.
"today i ate.......... today i did........ today i go......."

so please do not mistaken of what i've written.
im not EMO-ing and not even pointing to anybody.

i just want to explain and also express at different points of view.

so please understand :)
READ it CAREFULLY and not by judgemental or negative view.
read it as like more to expressive view.

whatever shit i typed,

lucky she understandss.
伟大的朋友。
to my that dear friend,
放心。不是在说你每次没空！！！！！！！
真的真的。
非常肯定再肯定不是在说那方面。
so change away that nick!

每次没空无所谓，最重要的是：
每次要想起我的存在。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。
要想起我的好。有什么东西都要和我分享。
就足够了。
朋友不一定要每次都有空陪。
会吓死人。LOL

fan si le. becos of the post.
-.-
damn fan si le.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. :)

dont just because of the overall that it looks emo,
and conclude it that way.
dont look at it at the wrong angle.

My heart draws a dream.

KEN KEN. HYDE HYDE :D

will the dream that my heart draws come true?

side track abit.

ごくせん３ <3

it's going to be theeeeeeee 3rd batchhhhh alr.

no more akanishi jin. BUT! one of the main lead will be the guy that's acting

sky of love. HIRO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.

ok.
i like this show and so i like afew unclessss from the show.
one of them is da kind chef :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i want to watch the show again. HAHA.
only if i got mobtv account now. :)
i'll go crazyyyyy over alot of things for sure. lol.

i like unclessss and the like in the sense is a different like to those
LOVE kind. :)

and now, i dunno whether is my computer setting problems or
the provider's problem.
that i could not surf almost all the webpages and websites.

oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

i could NOT surf almost all webpages and this is killing me.

=

Where is it?!!!! When will it be coming?

i got smthg to announce:

i want to burn away smthg .
which is fats.

hahahahahhahahahahahaa.

i catch ball-less during lectures.
i couldn't do any tutorial questions.
there seems so difficult to me.

omgosh.

i think work stuff seems easier to me now.
>:)

people is the most difficult to study on.
there's no enough books and studies that can completely talk about
human beings and its behaviour and its thinking.

and it's just so amazing.
i think it can take u 3 lifetimes or even more to fully understand humans.
bcos you urself is also human.


alright people.

marche?
food with me?
HAAHA

It's been a week since sch opens.
totally cannot get used to it.

omg.
becos its just too get used to the working situation and style.
everything is just so calm and slack and quiet around except
for the hectic workload.
other than that, it's just sitting down, air-con-ing, looking
at guys and doing your work.

HAHAHA!

school is damn crowded. trust me. OMG.
DAMN crowded.
pathway has turned into an expressway.
heavy traffic and fast motion.
LOL =p

so thinking of lunchtimes now,............
i dont even wanna go think about it.

URGH.

i want someone mighty.
a coollllllllllllll personnel. HAHAHA!

and unbearable weather these few days!
i think ever since going to end IPP that period or so
omg.
i think i can melt when put under the sun for just a little while.

the weather is making me so uncomfortable.
until i feellllllll like making myself feel damn cooling and cold and shiok.
but ice cream and freezy drinks is not in my list.

i guess.................. it's only air-con and pillows that is in my list.
HAHA!

to kill this bad weather~!

URGH!

and i guess maybe a cool guy can help me to kill this bad weather.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAHAHA
during my ipp, i dont feel hot cos got cool guy around.
LOL!
omgosh. lame-ing around.

okay dokay.

my hands are real itchy. im really wanna get A camera.
still really cant make up my mind on which to get. =/

been eating today.

I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE.

for a brighter future that i can eat even more,
i need to RUN like mad and exercise like MAD.


:)

cool guy please. HAHAHAHHAA

one classic standard phrase:
TIME FLIES.

yes indeed it really really is.
through this 11 weeks, i gained alot.
i gained on things which i will never never will do before.

weirdness and uncomfortable upon tmr's sch opens.
just kept on thinking weirdly about tmr's sch.
i guess is just bcos i get used in working everyday.
waking up early and reach the company at 730 every morning
turning on the computer and start facing outlook express mail
and start working all the way till 3.50.

the familar environment which accompanies me for that 11weeks
everyday without fail.

and just as i said, im damn weird.
once i got used to a environment and all,
if im going to leave, i'll just feel so damn weird and uncomfortable
and i'll just think abt the environment all day long.

maybe this is also the reason why between me and him.
i guess im just so oh get used.

so i guess next time once i settled down with one job and make sure it's a good one,
i wont leave anymore.

if not, i dunno how many times of sadness and weirdness im going to feel.

and i can predict soon im going to have this sympton again.
when i graduate and leaves NYP.

i really think im a odd-ball.
just when ppl cant wait to clean their butt and leave
i still cling on to the environment.
just becos of too getting used for the moment and never wanna leave.

aww. so turning one big round.
im just going to say that i'll miss the placeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

just like how last time i missed c h e e r s.
LOL
guaguagua.

i think the ppl do plays a big part la.
:)

everything ended in a rush on friday.
that's how i think it's always good to settle every touching moments
a day before.

they organised farewell lunch for me.
KFC-ed.
and then even the big boss in the department joins in the fun
and trust me, omg. they're just so lame and funny
and i always enjoyed listening to their chats just like listening
to some radio station.

it's really fun :)

and always they'll be laughing like mad.
and you can hear that it's pure joking and lame-ness.

that's how i fond of the place too.
the people over there!

and of courseeeeee.
smthg abit dots over here.
i definitely going to miss the cool guy like anything now -.-
omgoshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i cant see him anymore.
=(

HAHAHAHAA.

okay. so ended up thurs i carried lots of things home.
thanks for the bag that they gave.
been feeling so bad that they always treat me to food, bla bla bla
and even got my a bag!

so i just got the thought to buy them each a chicken essence
and some chocolates and of course a card. :)

and friday is most hectic trust me.
i missed out a everyday-task-to-do on that very last day of mine. OMG
but nvm.

LOL

sup gave me alot of company's gift.
and now my table is full of stuff,stuff and more STUFF.

bags of emails, company's gifts, customer's gifts which my boss bought from
america, chocolates which i placed on my desk(TONS OF THEM) trust me.
LOL

and im so addicted to having a office table with every thing you name it
you got it.

so i'll going to make sure that my home desk can do it too.
LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

omgoshness again.

okay, so for once im a happy kid.
cos thurs and friday i've been happily carrying papers which
made me happy and presents and chocolates.

then saturday my table is even filled with stuff from huiqi.
a keychain she ordered.
and stuff from japan by her sis.
and my bag from spree.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

shiokness that's explain why im a happy kid.
LOL

and i certainly lack of sleep now.
LOL.

friends came to eat steamboat and stayover.
but i think the weather is just so bad for....... steamboat
LOL
damn humid and hot and anything related to hot here.
and then my cats are creating havoc.
guaguagua.

ok. i certainly seriously hoping to make sure that the amulet
can make my wish come true~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


okay, enough of shiokness and everything.

now, i cant wait to get my camera.
MY CAMERA.

and this is smthg so true.

in order to gain something, something of the same value or so has to be sacrificed.

i think this is just part of life.
you cant have everything good to yourself.

give and take.

you take smthg good and of cos u gona exchange with smthg good too.

just like buying something.

so... im just going to face it.

attachments makes me have something to do and look forward to everyday
without thinking much.

it's all just friends and attachment. it's like a hiding place for me.

now no more attachment.
omgosh........

anyway, it's final year in poly.
so let's just rock and roll around poly for the last year!

before you starts to say "TIME FLIES"
quickly treasure the time you have now.

gd nights everybody :]

cant imagine i havent started on my report and yet i can spent
the energy on typing on a blog entry.

HAHAHA

そして神戸

the old never dies. it still remains.

58th kouhaku. with the cool five.

same.

55th kouhaku. with the gospellers.

in the earlier years.

sorry. abit oldies over here. HAHA

i got affected for a moment.
for 2 moments
for 5 moments.

and that's it.

i never want to mention it again.
:]

last week of IPP.

really nice people i have and good working experience.
though it's tagged customer service.
and that i know nuts about engine parts still up to date today.

i will miss everything there.
the shipping
the engineers
:]

any kind soul out there would want to go marche to eat cakes with me?
HAHAHAHAHAHA

moreover you see, my birthday is coming ok?

how sad can it be.

all for this birthday, i just want camera and cakes and warmth
from people around me.

okay.
counting down to 2more weeks.
omgosh. that's really really really really fast.

today's last day for those SP IA student.

and soon, 2 more weeks and it's my turn.

by then, got lots of things to settle.

i need to back up all my emails and stuff
prepare everything and my task before i leave.

not forgetting that report.

which my colleagues asked me a really good question.

"did you learn anything here?"

then giving me that kind of look.

HAHAHA.

im getting no life.
:

so 2 more weeks to year3.

what to say. only 2 word: time flies.
really.

i'll miss school.
thinking that far when im like havent even start my year 3 life.

sad life.

LOL.

i said no to 2 ferrero rochers today.
hahahahaha.
i scared they may put some medicine inside for me to eat.
LOL

goodnight ppl. enjoy your weekends :]

STICKY MUCUS going to stick with me for these few days already.
irritating deep phlegm too.

hahahahahaha.

been attacked by this word called "germs and bacteria"
i guess this war will not end soon. not that soon :]

i am trying to learn not to be that sensitive anymore.
which is suppose to be a very good thing.
uh hmmmmmm. :)

money money come to me.

because...

huiqi tell me to rebond myhair again cos my hair looks like auntie now
(HAHAHAHA)
i want to get my camera
i want to eat more
i want to save more :)

what do you use your brain for?
thinking?
imagining?
functioning?

what do human use their brains for?

it isn't actually a tough question.

look at that.
long long long stretch of big lorries and trucks
parking dead waiting to cross over to Johor.
and it's happening EVERYDAY.
:

hokey.
it's just my luck recently though my luck doesn't help in money issue.
that it makes me bumped into good sales assistant for these 2 days.
GRANIPH thumbs up for da' service :]
MINI BITS for today while finding huiqi up. thumbs up for da' service too :]

it's hardly to be able to meet sales assistant like them nowadays, seriously.

it draws down the tension when you just enter the shop.
built up conversation with them, esp the one in MINI BITS.
holla. we talked like we're friends. LOL.
and she said i kept smiling and she saw me before in marina sq. O_o

thumbssssss up :)

okay dokey.
i saw the moon slowly popping up.
and trust me.
at this time now 10:12pm,
the moon is orange with the background dark.
round and it's slowly rising up.
it just feels like HALLOWEEN.

pumpkin orange matches with black.

it's really cool
really really really.

alright people.
good nights :]

15th moon is bright and round tonight.
good sight :]

so that explained why my father brought all of us
for some "moon-sighting" session.
LOL.

from NTU then to TUAS.
hahahahahahahahaha.
and now i know that my workplace is nearer to
the "exit" and not that far and ulu.
TUAS SOUTH is a OMG place.
figure it out yourself.

im dying soon
dying~~~~

i seriously feel the aftermath badly now.
after that 123456789... days.

i think i seriously slow.
slow
slow
SLOW

i want to do alot of things.

but it's now all alone working it out.

bwuahd./

i need a boyfriend. LOL
:)

take care all my friends.
today is public holiday
which means we got 3 good days to rest and play!

HAPPY HOLIDAY-ING!

i seriously need somebody to talk to.

Climbing in bonds in the company.
good people around :)
building relationships with them.
but at the same time, more and more worried
that i may take them for granted and be less careful
in words and tone.

but well, there're GOOD people and now i TREAT outlook
express like my MSN.

HAHAHA!

lucky there's afew to keep me accompany in my email la.
make me look forward to read some emails.
:]

met with SARAH JANE at her block to pass her presents
and some crafty work i sew (fyi, i sew for the first time)
*proud of myself* though my skills still not very good

HAVE A SAFE TRIP MAN! :)

ok okay.
that's about it.

i'm still floating with no support.

my last present and card to him goes out with silence
without appreciations,thanks and so.
i dont even know how's it and if it's okay.
it's like a pre-break up gifts and presents
which i still thought i could make him happy.
not the money part that i feel wasted
is my effort i feel wasted.

I start to feel the aftermath.
which is obviously super slow.

i feel empty without him around.
i feel lonely cause i got no one to talk to.
there suddenly got a fire missing.
that warmth coming round surrounds me is gone.

can you find me someone
that is tall,got fats,got warmth,faithful,100%true,
had few ex gf,loyal,mature thinking,able to scold when in wrong,
able to think far,practical,able to amend/edit the pave that i made
and someone that you claim is better than you?

can find me somebody like that for me?

i lost a major part in my life.

it's just so empty.

and maybe that's why im starting to get more sensitive in my
friendship. :(

badbad.

and soon to be able to VIEW THE LONG WAITING RESULTS.

so dont wanna blog anymore.
i want to focus on results part

cause please, this is my very first time that i got
no confidence at all.
thinking all negative starting weeks back.

OMGOSHENESJGEWFNDGJT

Koizora.

nice movie.

standard heart warming touching love story.
this time round, it's the guy that contracted with cancer.

simple sweet sad and heart warming movie. :)

and the 2 male characters is good looking in different sense.
:))
and they're both faithful and sweet.
one like a river.
one like a tranquil ocean.

and i love those kinda simple sky photos.
clear and simple.
sky, flowers, water and grass.
awesome scenery - calming.

and where's my guy now?
When can i stop walking alone the path that crossed someone's?
will you be my sky?

It's really a nice movie. people, go watch it.
but if you're not into sobbing love story. better not.

:)

Can i have you one day?

HMMMMMM.

(didn't want to think that much anymore)



This is a tough question nobody can predict and see.



Fish n co on friday.
with collegues.

Seoul garden on saturday
with huiqi and her sister and bf later joined us.

and teppanyaki on sunday.

how great it is.(yea right)


talking about seoul garden.
damn. we stayed down there from 5 to 10. LOL
omgoshies yesyesyes.

good food rolling in.

and it's time to roll out some fats.



i certainly do.

i need jogging like mad now. :)

:)


met out with yanqi and sarah jane just now.
grabbed a day with ms sarah before she fly away
to germany.
just a simple day out.
though it is, but i do enjoyed :)
IT show. crowded with people. cheap deals everywhere
seriously.

Lastly. i do not know what to blog anymore.

i just need job now.

okay, here to update a lil.

to ber, sarah jane and two Qis.
i want to get camera like this cause if i were to get
something slim and common, then i shall just stick
with my hp camera. HAHAHAHAA. :)
i wanna snap good photos for good.

and then. the megapixels is 8.0x for this model.
with super macro, and 8 functions to choose from.
the functions is good :)

and no worries. it's not bulky at all. though
it's fatter then the usual ones. =/

and frankly speaking, those normal slim camera
doesn't really fancy me =/
that explains the reason why so many years after the camera
launches, i dont buy one yet.

and this further explains why im SUAKU. HAHA.

yeayea. though slimmer ones can be easily portable,
easily bring around when going out shopping and stuff.
and maybe sometimes i'll like slimmer camerassss.

but i think i'll stick with those kind still.

though......
i may sense that maybe after i get those kind of camera,
i may suddenly feel like wanting a slim camera when i see
friends having it.
LOL. fickle minded can -.-

lastly, thanks for your precious opinions. :)

SARAH JANE, seriously please meet up with me
and.......... yanqi a day before you fly away.
and that i'll pass you smthg precious to you before
you flyyyyyyyyyyy awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
haha :)

Lotsa movies coming up like madcow running,
let me know if you want to come watch them with me.

work has been good. despite the workload still.
haha. :)

have a nice weekend everybody.


i dreamt..

This is it.

I wanna get it.

Initially wanna get another model. but oh well, that's

totally out of my budget right now.

somemore im not a professional. HAHAHA.

so people, do give me your comments and opinions if

you have any. :)

cos i never buy a camera before. so

abit SUAKU here.

pardon me :))))

i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge
i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge

i go the urge to tell him.

but i just cant do it.
i cant say it all out.
cause im just so afraid that i'll ruin everything.
the state that we are now in.

it always stopped there/.

it's soon going to piled up and cemented there.

but still.. i really really got that urge.

tell me what to do. :/

it's fast, how amazing can it be.
cheeky isn't around still.

and that it's going to be 4th week.


it's already over 1month.
how great or should it be how bad?

i not sure. :[

ATT: HUIQI
From: TOMATO

once you see this urgent beep*, please reply to meeeeee.
HAHAHAHA. i seriously need to see YOUR REPLY.

okay. it's 3rd week FINALLY.
cool guy cut his hair.
his initial hairstyle is nice and make him look uper cool.
but now, :/ no more extra cool-ness added to him already.
not that cool anymore. :[

im going to get my baby real soonnnnnnnn
just wait for me :]
when i get MONEY.
i cant wait that damn seriously.

and i seriously need another jobs, anybody has any good deal?
HAHAHA.
and u'll notice the job ends with a s.

mahmod is funny.
and he seems to become my communication buddy during worktime.
LOL. :]
which is cooollllll.

and cheeky no where to be seen these few days. :/

HOT SUNDAY i must say.

:

it's HOT peopleeeeeee.

weird feeling~

and it's monday once again TOMORROW.
oh gosh.

i dreaddddddd cause of the workload.

i dreamt and i can see the workload is piling up and

coming towards me already. :[

saying hello to me alreadyy.

Anyway, went to spend a day at the sentosa ytd.

out to the NATURE. :] yea man!

then later in the night to cafe del moar.

it's s e n t o s a day.

nothing special over at the cafe del moar.

it's just like some hang out place at the beach :]

with beds and daybeds around.

maybe cause it's nighttime already

and that the toliet has shower rooms.
hahahaaaa.

simple day at the sentosa.

nice scenery.

and so, i cant wait to get my camera in my hands SOON.

:]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

okay, aftermath is i think i gotten myself some heatstroke or

smthg lidat. -.-

i just feel like eating tons of COLD WATERMELON,

COLD FREEZY DRINKS and stuff.
NO FOOD for me these few days.

just feed me with all the cold stuff.

hahahaaaaaaaaaa.

:]

yea. :]

cool people.

Im losing the grip of you.
Im losing the power of you.
Im losing. Im losing soon....

Im going to start running. running away.

I keep stopping the urge to prompt that topic.
ARGH.
but well, it's still not bad either.
:] i guess we are still alright in this state.

Work starts to be alittle more fun each day.
despite the never ending workload.
my collegues have been suffering more than me.

funny people around.
nice e-mails around, like from mahmod!
haha. he's a funny uncle. :]
thought he would blow off when i send wrong name. HAHA.
then shipping bunch of guys.
and that BLUR GOGGLE uncle.
and afew guys to drool at.

to gs and nic:
hey. i saw my BLUR GOGGLE uncle today.
and that he looked very blur with the goggles on.
looking at fruit and choosing fruit.
then when he paid and walked off,
his wintermelon dropped onto the floor.
HAHAHA.
then he picked it up and checked if his melon is ok
with his BIG GOGGLE on.
LOL. :]
uberly cute to the max.

and i havent got the chance to wear the goggles on.
i shall do it one day and purposely walk pass the HIGHLY dangered
area. :))
before i leave that place.

so yea. you can see that i'm starting to catch some fun in my workplace.
:)

afew cool guys to drool at too.
hahahahahahaha.
which i realised recently then.
not bad la huh.

today is the 15th!
it marks the end of CNY.
it also is the Chinese Valentine's day
it's also the full moon night
it's also a thursday.

tonight, the full moon gona brings a feeling of loneliness
atleast to me.
:(

silent night.

i seriously want to get a camera soon.
so i can start shooting around, with val sometimes too.
and i realise my hse area has perfect spot to take photoshoot.
like theres just this railway track afew blocks away from me.
old shophouses afew blocks away from me.
so just look at these.
isn't this gona be good good spots for phototaking?
uh huhhhhhhh :)

last note,

Happy Chinese New Year for the last one,
Happy Chinese Valentine's too.

have fun eating rich balls away~

:)

and to qiqiqi and a ting!
i misssssssssssssssssss the fruit cake at Marche seriously.
so seriously
damn seriously.

i fall in love with it!

and come on, give me a guy.
LOLOLOLOLOLOL
for this 2008.

i desperately have the urge to message.
message.
message.
hold on to the hp. type it and the HUGE urge to hit
the send button.

but in the end, i always didn't and end up throwing it
into draft.

when then can i send it?

im afraid that after i hit the send button, that's the end of the world.

i'll make the situation even worse.

but at the same time,
i desperately want to know alot of things.

How's you doing.
Whether do you still hold thoughts of me.
and stuff that's like personal and not for my audience.

ARGHHHH. GOAR.

work the 2nd week.
still cant get the hang of it.
but somehow or rather i do.
especially the part when i can walk around
to the shipping department.

and now i know what kind of job im looking for.
:]

dinner-ed.
walked around.
and i got myself a damn old tee.
LOLOOLOL.
but well, the size was like abit tight -.-

simple day after work.
just to create some L I F E.

tmr's back to WORK again.

GOSH. :

as much as i know
i still love you. i still think of you.

even when im stressed over struggling to stay floated in my workplace.
lol.

but i know these are all useless.
and im just too tired to think about it anymore.
except for the few occassions that u popped in my mind.

i had tried my best. my very best.
all my might. all my energy.
all my hope.

it seems useless now.

i all drained up.
it's as dry as ikan bilis.

i just want to sleep everyday after workkkkk.

damn tired. gets tiredddddd x2 that easily
ever since i started working.

ahhhh~~~~~~~~~~

i need SLEEP. FULL SLEEP

gosh.
this means that i cant be able to watch TV shows, online longer
shop longer and eat the food i stocked at home more.
means its like out from home. and by the time i got home.
my eyes are so dried up and i got to strain my eyes till
my eye bag look like puffy fish.
then cant wait to really get bathed in just like 5secs
and then lied on the bed and sleep.
its just like -.-
no quality time for me to eat, sleep and online.
HAHA!
all i want for is a very long sleep. :]
a full long sleep.

and hey. cny is not yet over.
but just tell me why this yr's cny is sucha boring, quiet and
mono one.
just tell me why.
TELL ME WHY.


great day out with qiqiqi~ and a Ting!
haa.
marche.
and yesh. ooooooww.
their cakes are heavenly o nice.
:]
and damn i forgot to take down their nice photos.
the fruit cake is pretty colourful and nice and yummy.
solid serving as well.
the fudge cake is just nice. not too sweet.
and of cos it's chocolately.
:]]]]]]]
oh god.
im sure going back for their cakes again.
their FRUIT CAKE.
wooohoo.
and maybe i'll just settle bx's present by treating a cake.
HA!
at the same time, i could kill my temptation as well~
:]

good food, good people.
bad energy power, bad timing spent tgt.
LOL.

tired la.

and i killed and grabbed a bag out of m)phosis sales.
not bad huh. :]

and gosh. it's only sat and im like stress over the workload
im going to start doing on monday during mon.
that.........
i dreamt of it ytd night.
oh gosh.
im stress over whether im able to handle the workload starting on mon.
becos its like it's going to be ME that runs the major daily reports for customers,
reports status and stuff.
OMG!
important stuff which runs by temp staff initially and now it's me.
i just cant get off the thinking of what's going to happen on monday.
like running dono how many company's report and then email to them?
then fax?
then status?
-.-
PLEASE BLESS ME THAT I CAN HANDLE IT WELL AND SMOOTH ASAP.

it can just get so stress.
on top of that, i didn't absorb much from handover.
bcos everybody is just so busy.
and i got to buck up on my english command.
cos i'll be like replying to customer's email.
and the customer is like one person, it's a COUNTRY, MAIN COMPANY.
ARGHHH.

tell me. im not the only one struggling?

completing work within the hours of worktime.
OH MAN.
please dont let me dream of it again tonight.
i need SLEEP.

and stop it stupid running nose.
recently i just catch a cold practically every midnight.
and i got to like wake up and sneeze for how many zillion times
and blow my nose like never ending then get back to slp.
some flu bug attacked me only during midnights.
cough too.

-.-

some lack of proper slacking kid blogging here about her stress.

okay. for commerical reasons,
i couldn't blog in details about attachment.
wanna know more, you can ask me anytime.

just in short and sweet notes,
it's only the 3rd day.
and theres quite alot of stuff going on and LOTS of things to
do everyday and learn.
cause i got to like absorb from the handover BY THIS WEEK.
and then besides learning, i got lots of things to do on hand.
that makes me having overtime like ytd and today.
but well, good welfare i can say. ask me more.

and the place consist like 90% of guys. OMGOSH!
haha!

okay. so im considered lucky.
that i can to get at chinese restaurant with my department's
staff and managers.
omg!
say im lucky.
haaa
though im like the youngest over in the department and everyone
just seems to be like my uncles and aunties. haha!
and im like the niece.
=P

HAA!

okay.
do ask me more.

and im tired everyday -.-

i need LIFE!

lonely quiet empty cny this year.




and tmr is gona be a big big day
=(

There's many things that i wanted to tell you.
but there may not be chances anymore.
things that i've learnt and realised.
things that i wanted to share with you.

maybe it had turned one sided.
that it's time to put a full stop to it.

i dreamt of him.
and its a +ve one.
does that meant something?

gobbling and eating away~
CNY goodies are goody lovey.
muhahahahaha.

im going fatter each day in this manner.
lol. X)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
新年快乐!

let's HUAT this year together. :]

May it be a fruitful year.
一个丰收年。
Grab hold of chances and get success out of it.
aim high!

chinese new year is a great festival.
many things to prepare for it, many traditional customs and
food that can be eaten during chinese new year only.
food like shun and suan ( leek).
then mandarin oranges.

then flowers that only blossom during chinese new year.
customs every chinese new year

i like keeping these kind of traditional customs around.
it's like if we dont keep, what's gona happened next time
during my generation.

had a great laugh today at my grandmother's house today.
hearing all my aunties speaking broken english.
it's super cute and funny.
cause my cousin married to a british man.
and so.....
everyone is like trying their best to speak their english
to communciate with him.
hahahahahahaha.

on a heavier note, grandmom was applied to go home for
chinese new year for 2 years before going back to hospital.
she slimmed down real lot.
it hurts to see her in this state. where just few months ago,
she's still okay.
not like now.

alright.
KELLY: yesyes, we'll go sentosa soon.... brenda cant wait alr =/ haha.
YANQI: YANQI~ im touched to see your tag here. really appreciate it :)
Long time since we last gone out le. we'll go out often soon!
I will call you out de. haha! after work to complain to each other.
haha. :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

HUIQI & LIQI: dont worry. there wont be 100% post on "that topic". haha.



lastly, GONG XI FA CAI :]

the cold breeze makes me feel like taking a walk. a quiet one
so that i could reminiscence. however, the rain started to pour heavier
each time.i perfectly like this weather now. though its coldddddddd.

i dono where to start on it.
Nways, the following part may be abit to myself.
not to my blog audience.

i certainly hope that you would know that
i still carry you in my heart and mind whenever i goes.
while im trying to breathe in new air, theres this little creature
and shadow running in my mind. and that's you.

they say that failed relationship is essential for one to grow. indeed,
i grow. but does that mean that there's no good ending after you learnt it
and grow through it? yes, u may say there will be good ending but with another
different better person. but hey no, i just wanted someone i've been with again.

will that mean that failed relationship makes you grow but at the same time,
you gona lost that person that makes you grow forever and ever?

i collected and placed each of them together.

as time goes, both parties may tend to be more demanding? may easily
be triggered and bored of all the nonsense and put up with one's nonsense.

when conflicts occured, and a serious one.
that could meant that both parties had grown up, different perspective in life.
after time of putting up with each other's nonsense.

probably in this stage, it's called love had mature. both parties had matured too.
therefore, it causes different opinions and stuff which is different from the beginning.

those sweet, loving days. "i dont mind your nonsense".

once relationship is stablised, grow as time goes.
definitely both will grow together as the relationship as well as the love.

BUT.

after each has realised, each has grown up, each has changed as each grow up,
each has matured, love has matured.

and the side effect may be sick and tired, fall in feelings.

but will there be a day when, each realised how love can be different and
how love matures and grow which is intangible.

and after all these, both can get back?

and that this is just part of how love grows.?
初期阶段- 爱快萌芽 -萌芽了。

maybe love is just like how a person grow up.
love grows too. in intangible form. as time goes.
you and me never know how love look likes, how love come from.
the only thing we know is that love is in a form of emotional expressions.

it's just like how a person grow up. in between during puberty stage,
there are alot of unstability, uncertainly and emotional unstability.
but once this stage is cleared, everything is back and okay. and may be better.

love can be break down into stages.
during its introduction stage, this is where love is blind, love is numb.
everything is wonderful and beautiful. everything is like perfect as long as
with you around. lovey dovey and that love is in the air. i dont mind your nonsense
i dont mind your bad habits.

in this stage, it allows you to further understand your partner and sees them in
various angle. in and out of them.

this stage put you into a test to fully understand each other and if it's going to be
working out well.

if you cleared this stage,

here comes the growth stage.
where slowly, you and i grow. there'll be times when frequent conflicts, quarrels popping out.
i cant stand your this and that. putting alot of your own temper and putting your own
usual way of doing things into your partner.
it's just like getting sick eating chicken rice everyday.

this stage put a test to whether are you able to handle things well together with your partner?

then here comes the most hard to understand stage.

Maturity stage.
when situations like "i cant stand your nonsense anymore" "i cant stand it anymore"
"i am sick and tired of all these".
unstability occurs in this stage.
the duration may be long or short.
this is where love grows as one grows.
love is grown together as one grows. as it is found in part of your body.

this stage put you in a test.
if after all these, both of you realise that we have all grow up.
perspective of things changes.
and after the unstability over, all of you can get back together.
strong as now each of you know what is really going on.
you had cleared this stage.

bad incidents is just a part in the maturity stage.

is that how to say it?
what will results in my maturity stage?
when will it end?

will he be holding on strong and think at it?

is that how to say it?
damn. im struggling to express all these thoughts into words.
which is seriously a HARD task for me. -.-
dictonary, come into my mind now.

uh. i dono.


i tried to breathe in new air, stepping on cement concrete floor w/0 you around.

this weather makes me wanna go for a walk maybe at...... botanic garden or somewhere.
which i can enjoy quietly in the tranquil beauty of nature.

i misses you.

something out of that topic for this entry.

it teared and pained me when i watch the drama at 1pm
on saturday.

the drama may be just acting for audience to watch and may
not be true,
but it depicts the life of elderys and the eldery society in Singapore.

how many people really understand the life they're undergoing
during their golden age?

common issues like unable to work, illness, sickness, spending
golden old age alone and stuff.

with worrying about expenses and when will they leave this world.

alot of issues. and normally, these issues pained me.

on a lighter note,
theres a group of elderly that are really living in good health to
the age of 102 and that amazes me.

maintaining good health, having children and grandchildrens around
able to live on his own and stuff.

this respect me.

i will want to do smthg for them a day. :]

Thanks you people. just the few of the few.

haaa.

countdown to ipp.

countdown to cny.

seriously, friends please date me out often.

im afraid that i'm surviving from "working obessity"

symptons and the effect will be no life.

or maybe im just finding excuses.

papers just gone by the wind.

it's fast.

but the process is dread and tiring.

Everyday, once i woke up.

time to hit the books all the way till night.

with few minutes of onlin-ing and tv-ing.

that's making me exhausted.

or also, maybe im just numbing it.

whatever and nomatter what,

it's still great having friends around me :]

chado is like love.

the bitterness of it make one grow up.

it is the bitterness that is necessary.

read through a friend's journal.
she's aint in any good state as compared to mine.

she prayed everynight.
so do i.

im silly you can say.
everynight, i'll repeat this
" i hope that one day, there's a chance. im deeply in love."
before i go to sleep.
i hold on to that special thing tight in my hands close to my chest
while getting into sleep.

making impossible wishes.
how can i have you back?
what if i could have you back?
i really want to have you back.

panic-ed when i felt that i wasn't grabbing onto the necklace halfway
through my sleep.
woke up, search through the dark.
cant find.
panic, sudden rush.
luckily i managed to find it during the early morning.
holding tight to it and back to sleep.

transferring photos of him, drawings he drew into my phone.
flipping through msg-es like never ending.

is there any ways where i can show it to you again?

all these aside.
i want to study hard and exams to be over asap.

it wont be easy.

however, i managed to make it to a point where
i can still focus on studying.
through there's time when i just released my tear gland
while studying.

exam papers, just come to me.
i'll fight a battle with you.

im holding risk at the same time.
risk that i may have to take in.

i know it well that
i will have disappointments.

but i'll still hold.


wasted trip to sch today.
nonetheless, studied with bren today in sch lib.

dididon.





it marked in the chapter.
as the saying goes what's done is done.
no point forcing.
end up to no good.
no point crying over spilled milk.
it doesn't help.

even if you used permanent marker to drew on smthg u shldn't,
there might be solutions to it.

it's like 死到领头才发现，
dont understand why people will be like that.
which i am one of them.

Fate gave me a wonderful big present which is him.
Fate gave me someone that's so good to me.
I'm so blessed and happy that fate gave me someone
so wonderful that i floated in the sky.
he is the only one that i poured and empty every single thing
in my bottle to him.
he is the only proper one that make me 100% comfortable to the extent
i do not need to wear a mask and be me myself.

however, i didn't appreciated it till the last moments.
i ruined it.
becos of this and that and whatsoever factors,
i'm like a tortoise in the shell.
dragging him in and down.
i ruined it once again.

when i finally wake up to my senses,
it's all too late.

thought that this time round, it will be a beautiful one.
a beautiful, long, peaceful, stable and good one.

took advantages of it.

what do i get in the end?

isn't sweet ripe fruit and results from the efforts we put in
but is pain i created myself, experiences and ugly lesson learnt.

people are weird. they always learnt their lessons after things happened.
even though there are so many books and storybooks on moral values
which forms phrases you and i often heard of.
but even when people know of all these before things happened,
they couldn't be bothered.
when things happened, then they learnt their lessons and blame themselves

now, it's not the matter of blaming myself and stuff.
i will prove to you and me
i hope for the hope.

i hope that my hope can be true
i hope that we can be back someday
i hope that you can be mine once again
my hope is to hope there's a chance and the word CAN
to the above.

if i were to be given one last chance,
i would be readily prepared, fully "studied and learnt for
my lesson" and treasure and take every single little things
seriously.

will you over time consider me?

i will prove to you and me.

no more bintan
no more touring ard singapore not by trains and bus
no more fireworks in another way
no more eating around
no more warmth-absorbing session

thankful that you're willing to stay around to be my listening ear
im contented.
really contented.

if i were to lose this pair of listening ear, i really do not know what to do.
cause there's no one only you fit to be my pair of ears.

i wonder if i got problems about you, who can i turn to?


for now, it's exams.
IPP which poorly located at tuas area. -.-
i somehow wished it's of better places.



i will prove to me and you.



house by the sea.

GUISHAN TAN
SPECIALLY FOR YOU.
LYRICS AND SONG ATTACHED IN MY BLOG

lol. :]

Doraemon theme song

konna koto ii na
dekitara ii na
anna yume konna yume ippai aru kedo

minna minna minna
kanaete kureru
fushigina POKKE de kanaete kureru
sora wo jiyuu ni tobitai na

(hai! takekoputaa!)

AN AN AN
tottemo daisuki
DORAEMON

shukudai touban shiken ni otsukai
anna koto konna koto taihen dakedo

minna minna minna
tasukete kureru
benrina dougu de tasukete kureru
omocha no heitai da

(sore! tototsugeki!)

AN AN AN
tottemo daisuki
DORAEMON

anna toko ii na
iketara ii na
kono kuni ano shima takusan aru kedo

minna minna minna
ikasete kureru
mirai no kikai de kanaete kureru
sekai ryokou ni ikitai na
(ufufufu... doko demo DOA!)

AN AN AN
tottemo daisuki
DORAEMON

AN AN AN
tottemo daisuki
DORAEMON

Less than 12 hours to a beautiful 2008.

Going to mark the end of 2007, be it a fruitful year or not.
it is going to end. (that's the fact no matter what.)

365 days in 2007.
occupied with tears, laughter, joy and sorrow.
forgot about the bad ones, keep the good ones in your memory book
well.

although every year is the same, with the same cycle of a new year
coming on and on.

however, it holds differently in each person.
The feeling of having the wait towards a new year is always good.
one step towards in my life path.
one year older.
one step nearer to future.

2007.
reminiscences.
i spent my year 2 in this year.
TEP attachment that allows me to know new friends,
mingle around and however i feel that i've grown up that
teeny weeny bit.
not only about social circle part, it allows me to learn alot of
things which i think i will not ever learnt outside.
thanks to school, finally i know what im learning for good
for my future.

SARAHJANE, it's GREATTTTT to know you. ;)
"sisters". LOL.

he let me think,
let me see through myself somehow.
and allows me to grow up day after day.
to become a better person for my own benefit.
sunshine, rain and rainbow after the rain.
thanks baby. :]
we will hold together stronger each day.
love you

to my dear friends,
thanks for tolerating with my CRAPs, RUBBISHs,
EXTRA USELESS nonsense, hahaha!
thanks for still "clinging" with me till now! x]
regardless of how noisy i'll still be in 2008,
continue to cling with me. WAHAHA!
there's nothing except THANKS to mark it.
way to go :)
i'll be a better friend.
sad to announce that 2008, a new year, fresh beginning,
be a new person in this new year and with me around still.
haha.
happy? sad?
dont be sad huh.

well well.
today is the lasy day.
STANDARD procedure,
everyone will reflect on the things done in 2007.

caught an interesting quote,

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays
up to make sure the old year leaves."

- Bill Vaughan, writer and columnist.

" A good beginning marks a good end."
- Louis L'Amour, Amercian author of primarily Western fiction.

I hope i place a good beginning on 2008.
and there will be fruitful results at the end.

on this very last note,
the weather is extremely good. BRIGHT sunshine, good sunny weather
with cool breeze.
Fast without knowing, the sun will soon sets, full moon forming and shine
together with millions zillions stars and first sunshine of the year will shine
at you tomorrow!
alerting you that it's a new year.

people, start to get ready and here it rolls, 2008!

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Have a good year ahead.
Look forward for every moments.
Treasure it as there's only once in lifetime.

ENJOY

holidays read like this:

projects for the first few days.
work for some few good days.
slacked
stuffing food and grabbing sleep
looking and enjoying the moments
with baby around. :]
riding baby's bike around and caught
red line.
no monkeys though.

it's so specially special about babies
it's a wonder how baby is created.
LOL.
little niece is real cute, small and soft.
she carries her smile 90% throughout the day.
just somehow make me wanna have a child too.
LOL!

alittle not used without her around today.
;[

ride baby's bike. :]
coolios.

anyhow, i think i can used peace and white to describe
this year's christmas.

it's peaceful, normal and nothing special.

all these doesn't matter, as long as there's warmth from
the people around me that accompanied me during the special
day. :)

happy boxing day :]

project.
cracking my head big enough.

it's a sight to see dearly so happy and excited with his new born "baby".
haha. :D

back to reality.

strive to kill off projects load.
maintaining in that study mood.

be knowledgabe.

people, catch e alvin and chipmunks songs.

Another one dropping into that little hole.
i hope that the one could one day see it on their own.

or..

could be the other changes.

Torment
Torture
Tremor
Treasure
Trust 141% + 40% Jealousness

Projects strive me alive yet could be stressful to handle them
am making sure that every project is on the track so that it wouldn't
be a rush at the end.

I couldn't describe how much feelings of being relieved and happy i am on tuesday.
I really couldn't, for once i thought i've dropped down into a deep pit never to climb back again
due to my bad foundation where i didn't think of.
a point of line where i am losing yet holding a small % of hope and feelings.
i THANK. REMEMBER the MOMENT.
i really got to thank and i must strive a change. :)
no empty sentences made this time round.
hereby by me.
been through and seen through, i somehow start to think differently.

i know trust can overcome everything.

thanks dearly,
and thanks to my friend.

due to hectic shedule, i failed to reply SARAHJANE in time
and failed to reply to minjun in time.

wouldn't been updating that often now.

i cant control people's feelings.

1. ..
2. ..
3. ..
4. ..
5. ..

speechless.

christmas is on its way.
it's a season of joy.
and i hope it is certainly a joy for me on that season.

worked on this weekend.
no more resting-slacking-eating-sleeping-tv-ing weekends.

my little kingdom-ed at suntec kidzone.
the first day went bad, damn bad.
helpless in the sense there's nobody to guide along.
all on YOUR own.

problems with the lights.
problems with the door.
problems with the POS.

myman.

alone tending a shop is never easy.

luckily.
sun everything went smoothly.
like s m o o t h l y.

met quite alot of children that are really cute and amazing.
one of them cooked a "fish" and gave me.
HA HA!

:)

dealing with toys,
umm. alright alright.
makes me feel like playing too.

whole 10 hours of repeating CD's of children songs.
until now my mind is still playing the songs.


keeping myself busy.

unchanged. - kinki kids.

yes, for me it's unchanged.
i not sure about you.
/:

big rain suddenly.
caught in the busstop, helpless for once.
too big to run home.
mum came with umbrella :)
while waiting in the busstop,
raindrops fall down, cold wind,
silent surrondings with cars zooming pass.
it's like ..........................

japanese and business finance ica is over.

i keep you tight in my dreams,
so that i can dream of you, about you everynight.
it's all about you.

gona be a hectic week again.

phone going to die on me soon.
some kinda problems like SARAHJANE's.
i think i better get it repair by this thurs.
it's still on warranty until this thursday.
zzz.

few ica papers this week.
business finance, japanese, EFMA and law.

mug but somehow i fall into the addiction of sleeping.
i cant stop myself from sleeping and sleeping away.
once i got home, i think of sleeping.
i dont feel like waking up and just wanna sleep all the way.
SLEEP. BRAIN FROZE. ADRENALINE FLOWING LIKE IN
EXPRESSWAYS. SLEEPLESS ALL CAUSE..

internet explorer laggy like the laggard.

hectic week, i wonder when can i finally see him. :[

a big SIGH.

i needa force myself to study then off to sleep again.

only in dreams i could take the control of things.

i wish lala..

munch munch.
i've got to stop munching.
i've got to control my mouth.
temptations not!

SARAHJANE, dont forget our deal we made that time.
haaaa.
after the ICAs?
bwahahaha.


i want to get some change.
like c h a n g e.

:]

like change for the better
change for the good
change for the future
change for somebody.

change (n):
to be different from the usual.

LOL!

にほん test on tuesday.
:

あなたは　がくせいですか。

ICA week next week.

anyway, finally marketing project is up for good.
:) *contented*

Christmas is coming.
everybody, be prepared for this joyful season! :D
BE HAPPY AND ENJOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Busy like a bee.
sleeping like a pig.
eating like NOT a bit.

-_-

hectic weeks. got nothing much to blog about cause u know i know
that im spending days in school for 5 days a week,
listening to lectures, doing tutorials, squeezing and growing brain
cells time to time for projects, busy saving money, going to find a job,
trying to eat like a rubbish bin, trying to maintain and strengthen it and lastly,
waiting for weekends and dates to come.

i need to grab hold of the every possible opportunities i have before
it's crawling away from my hand.
:(

ARGH.

last note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PING.
:)


2008 is coming.

OK, update. :)

"Sometimes, things happen so fast in life, you're not given a chance to redeem at all, it just passes you..

That's why we really gotta cherish and treasure the people around us"

quoted from a friend,

which i totally agree with it.

you'll never know what will happen tmr, the next day, the day after
or the next week.

right now, we need to cherish what we have around us,
treasure the times we have.

you only have a life, live it, be happy
and fill it colorful.


school like the usual.
been on the pace, faster and faster each day.
projects, ICA, tutorials........

monsoon and rainy season is approaching.
one essential item for this period, which is UMBRELLA.
get one of ur choice now. :)

DRAGON ASH- few lights till night.

the sky is white, it's going to rain.
the feeling is peaceful.

i like the feeling right now.
sky is white, mild breeze blowing..
as at 5.36pm. :)

if i could stand on the rooftop of a building,
watching ahead of the rising sun.

that would be great.

just like how the scene where somebody wanna confess
feeling right on top of the building by the help of reflection
and sun rays.

すき。。。

- hyd.

ahh. the scenery would be beautiful. :)

like how the scenery would be by the sea.

projects are piling up.
-business law.
-marketing management
-N.E
-retail studies.

bang bang bang.

sarah just gave me a temptation of eating.... yanyan.
HAHA!

it's hard to maintain a meat's freshness once bought.
it's just like maintaining a relationship's freshness.

it's hard sometimes to maintain the freshness of it.

despite all those, i will still try to do my best.

bcos i've put in all my soul and heart in it.

to keep it in the long-run...

i think i've placed the bricks into the wrong formation.
thus, creating the wrong structure of this path.

and now, the path wobbles.

i've build up a wrong foundation. =/

我打错了基础。

but i will definitely hold on :)


ORANGE RANGE- WALK ON.
the pv is cool to the max. coolio lo lo.
they just simply keep walking on and on.
the scenery and the view is nice.
by the sea, the quiet road, the blue sky.

i would want to walk on that road too.
just like how they are walking on and on
walking and thinking back.
at the same time, working on the future.

TIRED. MORE TIRED!
tired until my brain cant move.

Managed to struggle to finish up tut.
sucha relief.

ARGH!
bloated.
im feeling so bloated right now.

result due to: TOO FULL. -.-
feeling super bloated like stomach gona
explode soon. EXPLODING soon.

this feeling doesn't encourage me into my sleep world
even though im tired. DAMN tired.

IPP is drawing near.

Exams is drawing even nearer.

and im even much more tired.


Though it's strong, there's still uncertain fear attached to it.
:(
hopefully. NOTHING. :)

BANG>

i feel the STRESS coming ... on its way.
muhahahahaha.


feel the STRESS, the TENSE and everything.
omgosh omgosh omgosh omgosh.

walking home isn't a safe thing always now.
LOL.
esp at nights.

anyway,
i got to go do up my HOMEWORK.
im a hardworking kid.
muahahah.
TIRED like anything.
cant wait to finish homwork, phone-ing then sleep.

goody night and goody bye. :)


everybody, YEAY~! XD

love looks like candy recently.
haha.
red,lime green,orange,purple..

boo. cant upload smthg i've drawn.





X






back to reality.

tutorial time to be continued.
:)

cant wait to finally finish then sleep.
this feeling makes me think back when
im in primary sch.
where i dread to do homework everynight~
and end up finishing homework in the late night.
tsk tsk.
temptations from the TV.

forgot to take out law book.
hence, cant do law tutorial today.
haaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

throat start to get pain.
bwahaha.

and thanks, that my fp-logy for once is so chim.
LOL, everyone claim to say that. bwhahaha.

nights,
by lola.

dream a little dream in me.

when things gets complicated, your feelings
gets complicated too.

RAAAAAAR!

Sometimes i wonder, wonder and wonder.
that..
how would one find the one that they could throw their sorrows
and troubles to, so easily. and not even someone which u were that close
for.
how would one be sure that the one will be the one that can be
the pair of listening ear.
how would one have the courage to speak up to the one about
their sorrows and troubles.

i cant possibly do that, at all.

i could only hide it behind a mask and throw a pebble down into the pond.
creating wavelengths and after looking at it, it makes you feel better.

----

i sometimes dont understand...
how human behaves and how they thinks.
it's seems not a easy thing to study,observe and know.
but somehow, there'll be a way.. maybe years.

how one wish there's something invented called self-mirror to look at one's own
actions right infront of one self.

therefore, a term call self-reflection.

one say other, it's ok. to other, it's not ok.
other say one, not ok. but one say other, it's ok.

:?confusing.

nobody will see their own actions and moves, bcause there're
no mirrors infront of one to show what are one doing.

one may dislike other people for their actions because one are the mirror
that can see what are they doing.

but how about ourselves? people can dislike us in the same manner as
how we dislike them.

same thing applied. they can see what we're doing while we cant see
what we're doing ourselves.

we can do the same things as the thing that we dislike about them.
but we dont know ourselves.

this comes reflection.

terminology.

no hardest topic is to be compared to human's studies.

they can be A today and then B the next day.
therefore, it's AxB=AB
they can be (AB) to you and (AB)x(C) to you another day.

they say ABC and ABD the next day.

definitely confusing. if one were the one that's doing the observing
and were in silence.

perhaps one should suggest to study on each other.
like A will study on B.
and B will study on C.

at the end of the period, one would submit a report analysis
for the other to take a look of other self to see what have other been doing.

it's call buddy analysis.
(bull-shitting)

and i definitely gona say, there must be chemistry involved around humans.
whereby one feel that one is the other's pair of ears.

so, there's this you havent step in my shoe, you wouldn't know how will i feel
if you were me.

and bla bla bla.

so far, i couldn't bump into that chemistry gas yet.
maybe i havent been breathing in much varieties.
cause my airholes are blocked.

im like a companion more to a soulmate for others.

where i belong?

A-0=0 (nobody attached the powerful thing on A)
therefore, A+0=0 (A couldn't find the powerful thing as well)

BWAHAHAHA.

for once, i feel that i've talked some nonsense that i dont even know.
LOL!
however, i feel like i've created some fp-logy today.
just let me type.
atleast i feel like some writers giving some terminology on some logies.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH.

seafood platter. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

:)

After soooooo longggggggggg,
lunch-ed with love today.
though the duration is short like dunno wad
+ the crowd.
never wanna imagine.
LOL. :)
as said by huiqi, finally and it's good that
i lunch-ed with him. haha.

however, the crowd is .......... (CROWDED TO THE MAX)

buffets held at auditorium for secondary school kids.
cool buffet they got.

and we had to like CROWD together with people
to form a BIGGER CROWD.

saw SARAHJANE today.
and she was like msg-ing me before lecture that she overshot
mrt station.
haaa.
that's her ;) *ting ting*

second day of school.
notes and MORE NOTES.
and it seems to be thicker by each semester.

Hi-ing here and there everyday,
esp when we're having lectures.
"hey peng you!"
"HELLO~~~~~~~~~"

lol.

:)

quite cool and lively,
thanks to tep.

haha.

i need............... FOOD.

i STRIKE to be more HARDWORKING this yearend. :)

TEP has ended.
It's great i can say, especially with great people around.
:)
it's fun and just super duper great.
the 18weeks is FULLY AWESOME and GREATSOME.

i guess next week gona be a hard time, getting used back
to the lifestyle of tutorials and lectures.

Flexi, Slack, Work without exams, Fun, No homeworks,lunchtimes
and practically leisurely walking w/0 rushing.

I seriously enjoyed and not get used of the study lifestyle.
HAA!

and i do miss msc :)

owwwwwww.
soon getting into a lil sentimental.
:(

note to sarah:

having YOU around me and besides me almost everyday
for that 18weeks.
it seems to be like a part of my life already,
having you around everyday.
yea, truly. HAA! WE're like bugs hopping around everyday in school.
it's GREEATTTTTTTTTTT to have know you.
you brighten up a normal day :D
and i still remember the very first time i had breakfast with you
which is mac big breakfast when we're still in cheers.
first opening together in cheers.
and ya da ya da.
i guess i may not be getting used without you around.
HAHA!
guess i'll randomly goes...:where's sarah?
Anyway, do meet up often kay? lunch, cheers, or out. :)
GREAT to GAIN you as a friend.
the countless fun moments we had. HAA!

and i think it's really due to pms that i'm being defensive.
LOL.
sorry huh.

and also a note to my family:

it's cool to have involved into a family relationship :)
thanks to mama! :D

also,
it's great that i gain-ed ALOT of fun friends too :)
hopefully to meet up for lunch sometimes!


anyway, i miss a great opportunity to go to the place
i longgggggggggggggg wana go today. :(
it's sad. FULLY SAD.
cause i've been waiting to see who wanna go with me.
but hopefully, there's somebodies that wanna go soon,
so that i can go too.
hopefully, there'll be one more outing to there one day soon.
:)

spent whole day at home.
weather unpredictable,

thinking of monday,
sian. -.-
i seriously will have monday blues on that day!

TEP coming to an end this Thursday.
:(

bought yanyan sticks like crazy today.
b'cause NTUC having quite alot of promotions.
LOL!

:)

while i'm bathing, i thought of what to post on my blog.
im......... INSANE!

indeed, i am insane today.

to myself: stop being insane. CONTROL YOURSELF.
me: okay...

im feeling ...

worried, stressed, tired, sensitive, a lil sentimental,
emotional, nervous, crazy,fear from suspenders(LOL!),
sight of guishan(LOL again!), words-uncontrollably-coming-out-from-
my-mouth and insane today.

i totally cant help it and cant control it.

zzzz.

so my friends,
sorries. dont mind me for today of what i've done.
cause at the moment, i dont want what i've been doing.
i dont want you guys to mistook me so i got to explain.


SORRIES.

i guess maybe becos..........

i havent been eating much than my usual days.
i eat lesser then my average.

anyway, i felt delighted! :)
im a easily contented person.

im happy when i read my e-mail and saw a e-mail replied by
chocolates wang and hanleng post me a friendster comment.

WAHA HA.

:)

so conclusion: easily contented.

wish:

hope i'll be better tmr by having a better intake of food tmr.
so my friends wont suffer nonsense and weird attitude from me.

last note:

MACDONALD's had opened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's super super super nice and beautiful XD

and, RECEIVED timetable.
also, saw the TALL HUGE pile of lecture notes printed ready
at the printing shop ready for sales on next monday.

IT's NEW SEMESTER NEXT WEEK.
even though it dont feel like new semester next week as
we dont have any breaks.

Goody Nights,
:)

thanks to my friends that can stand my nonsense,
though i know in ur heart, u all mind alot and may complain
about it.

I drink water e very day~

reports almost done. which im very content about.
:)

i still have gelare waffle voucher which i havent redeem =/

and,
i love the smell when it's after the rain.
:)

it makes me feel like taking a walk.

and lastly,
i have a feeling that mac canteen gona open tmr.
LOL!

Many things and thoughts which i dont know how to put and form them
into words.

Little time too.

i would want to have more time for outings with people
i hardly spend time with and not forgetting, friends.
things have to be treasured, same goes for human.

however, it always seems that time is the greatest spoiler.

anyway,
SARAHJANE, where's my esplanade and sentosa?
LOL!
though i know u're always very busy huh.
and though we seems to be ''fighting'' recently.
poor girl. :)

and we found many sweets and titbits that we always
eat when we were young.
for once, that kinda feeling once came back!

the tasty biscuits in small packet,
the bobdog cigarette sweets,
the green packaging orange sweet with gas inside,
many many more!

overall in overall,
i gained alot of new friends which gives me great times
during the period of tep. :)

and abit spoiling here,
i dreamt myself killing people.
LOL.


my heart draws a dream,
i hope the dream will come true one day.

xie xie da jia de re lie zhi chi.

谢谢大家的热烈支持。

Thanks all for your great support.

in...........

tagging at my tagboard!

:D

this is making Qi jealous perhaps?

love reading ur tags. haha!

so do tag more :)

went to thomson plaza first.

then town-ed.

yanqi came to find us.

cos today she flexi.
haa!

walked around.

no $$$$$. no buying.

team dinner later on in the eveing at fish n co.

sounded sua ku but it's my first time there!

haha :)

and got to taste crayfish.

not that bad.........
would like to try the seafood platter one day :)

live band was cool.

and then justin went up to dedicate songs,

went up to the stage.

in the end didn't sing, only sitting on the stage =/

then HOME-ED.

next week will be the last week.

sentimental post up next week. :)
haa!

Do i exist?