what do you use your brain for?
thinking?
imagining?
functioning?

what do human use their brains for?

it isn't actually a tough question.

look at that.
long long long stretch of big lorries and trucks
parking dead waiting to cross over to Johor.
and it's happening EVERYDAY.
:

hokey.
it's just my luck recently though my luck doesn't help in money issue.
that it makes me bumped into good sales assistant for these 2 days.
GRANIPH thumbs up for da' service :]
MINI BITS for today while finding huiqi up. thumbs up for da' service too :]

it's hardly to be able to meet sales assistant like them nowadays, seriously.

it draws down the tension when you just enter the shop.
built up conversation with them, esp the one in MINI BITS.
holla. we talked like we're friends. LOL.
and she said i kept smiling and she saw me before in marina sq. O_o

thumbssssss up :)

okay dokey.
i saw the moon slowly popping up.
and trust me.
at this time now 10:12pm,
the moon is orange with the background dark.
round and it's slowly rising up.
it just feels like HALLOWEEN.

pumpkin orange matches with black.

it's really cool
really really really.

alright people.
good nights :]

15th moon is bright and round tonight.
good sight :]

so that explained why my father brought all of us
for some "moon-sighting" session.
LOL.

from NTU then to TUAS.
hahahahahahahahaha.
and now i know that my workplace is nearer to
the "exit" and not that far and ulu.
TUAS SOUTH is a OMG place.
figure it out yourself.

im dying soon
dying~~~~

i seriously feel the aftermath badly now.
after that 123456789... days.

i think i seriously slow.
slow
slow
SLOW

i want to do alot of things.

but it's now all alone working it out.

bwuahd./

i need a boyfriend. LOL
:)

take care all my friends.
today is public holiday
which means we got 3 good days to rest and play!

HAPPY HOLIDAY-ING!

i seriously need somebody to talk to.

Climbing in bonds in the company.
good people around :)
building relationships with them.
but at the same time, more and more worried
that i may take them for granted and be less careful
in words and tone.

but well, there're GOOD people and now i TREAT outlook
express like my MSN.

HAHAHA!

lucky there's afew to keep me accompany in my email la.
make me look forward to read some emails.
:]

met with SARAH JANE at her block to pass her presents
and some crafty work i sew (fyi, i sew for the first time)
*proud of myself* though my skills still not very good

HAVE A SAFE TRIP MAN! :)

ok okay.
that's about it.

i'm still floating with no support.

my last present and card to him goes out with silence
without appreciations,thanks and so.
i dont even know how's it and if it's okay.
it's like a pre-break up gifts and presents
which i still thought i could make him happy.
not the money part that i feel wasted
is my effort i feel wasted.

I start to feel the aftermath.
which is obviously super slow.

i feel empty without him around.
i feel lonely cause i got no one to talk to.
there suddenly got a fire missing.
that warmth coming round surrounds me is gone.

can you find me someone
that is tall,got fats,got warmth,faithful,100%true,
had few ex gf,loyal,mature thinking,able to scold when in wrong,
able to think far,practical,able to amend/edit the pave that i made
and someone that you claim is better than you?

can find me somebody like that for me?

i lost a major part in my life.

it's just so empty.

and maybe that's why im starting to get more sensitive in my
friendship. :(

badbad.

and soon to be able to VIEW THE LONG WAITING RESULTS.

so dont wanna blog anymore.
i want to focus on results part

cause please, this is my very first time that i got
no confidence at all.
thinking all negative starting weeks back.

OMGOSHENESJGEWFNDGJT

Koizora.

nice movie.

standard heart warming touching love story.
this time round, it's the guy that contracted with cancer.

simple sweet sad and heart warming movie. :)

and the 2 male characters is good looking in different sense.
:))
and they're both faithful and sweet.
one like a river.
one like a tranquil ocean.

and i love those kinda simple sky photos.
clear and simple.
sky, flowers, water and grass.
awesome scenery - calming.

and where's my guy now?
When can i stop walking alone the path that crossed someone's?
will you be my sky?

It's really a nice movie. people, go watch it.
but if you're not into sobbing love story. better not.

:)

Can i have you one day?

HMMMMMM.

(didn't want to think that much anymore)



This is a tough question nobody can predict and see.



Fish n co on friday.
with collegues.

Seoul garden on saturday
with huiqi and her sister and bf later joined us.

and teppanyaki on sunday.

how great it is.(yea right)


talking about seoul garden.
damn. we stayed down there from 5 to 10. LOL
omgoshies yesyesyes.

good food rolling in.

and it's time to roll out some fats.



i certainly do.

i need jogging like mad now. :)

:)


met out with yanqi and sarah jane just now.
grabbed a day with ms sarah before she fly away
to germany.
just a simple day out.
though it is, but i do enjoyed :)
IT show. crowded with people. cheap deals everywhere
seriously.

Lastly. i do not know what to blog anymore.

i just need job now.

okay, here to update a lil.

to ber, sarah jane and two Qis.
i want to get camera like this cause if i were to get
something slim and common, then i shall just stick
with my hp camera. HAHAHAHAA. :)
i wanna snap good photos for good.

and then. the megapixels is 8.0x for this model.
with super macro, and 8 functions to choose from.
the functions is good :)

and no worries. it's not bulky at all. though
it's fatter then the usual ones. =/

and frankly speaking, those normal slim camera
doesn't really fancy me =/
that explains the reason why so many years after the camera
launches, i dont buy one yet.

and this further explains why im SUAKU. HAHA.

yeayea. though slimmer ones can be easily portable,
easily bring around when going out shopping and stuff.
and maybe sometimes i'll like slimmer camerassss.

but i think i'll stick with those kind still.

though......
i may sense that maybe after i get those kind of camera,
i may suddenly feel like wanting a slim camera when i see
friends having it.
LOL. fickle minded can -.-

lastly, thanks for your precious opinions. :)

SARAH JANE, seriously please meet up with me
and.......... yanqi a day before you fly away.
and that i'll pass you smthg precious to you before
you flyyyyyyyyyyy awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
haha :)

Lotsa movies coming up like madcow running,
let me know if you want to come watch them with me.

work has been good. despite the workload still.
haha. :)

have a nice weekend everybody.


i dreamt..

This is it.

I wanna get it.

Initially wanna get another model. but oh well, that's

totally out of my budget right now.

somemore im not a professional. HAHAHA.

so people, do give me your comments and opinions if

you have any. :)

cos i never buy a camera before. so

abit SUAKU here.

pardon me :))))

i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge
i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge i got the urge

i go the urge to tell him.

but i just cant do it.
i cant say it all out.
cause im just so afraid that i'll ruin everything.
the state that we are now in.

it always stopped there/.

it's soon going to piled up and cemented there.

but still.. i really really got that urge.

tell me what to do. :/

it's fast, how amazing can it be.
cheeky isn't around still.

and that it's going to be 4th week.


it's already over 1month.
how great or should it be how bad?

i not sure. :[

ATT: HUIQI
From: TOMATO

once you see this urgent beep*, please reply to meeeeee.
HAHAHAHA. i seriously need to see YOUR REPLY.

okay. it's 3rd week FINALLY.
cool guy cut his hair.
his initial hairstyle is nice and make him look uper cool.
but now, :/ no more extra cool-ness added to him already.
not that cool anymore. :[

im going to get my baby real soonnnnnnnn
just wait for me :]
when i get MONEY.
i cant wait that damn seriously.

and i seriously need another jobs, anybody has any good deal?
HAHAHA.
and u'll notice the job ends with a s.

mahmod is funny.
and he seems to become my communication buddy during worktime.
LOL. :]
which is cooollllll.

and cheeky no where to be seen these few days. :/

HOT SUNDAY i must say.

:

it's HOT peopleeeeeee.

weird feeling~

and it's monday once again TOMORROW.
oh gosh.

i dreaddddddd cause of the workload.

i dreamt and i can see the workload is piling up and

coming towards me already. :[

saying hello to me alreadyy.

Anyway, went to spend a day at the sentosa ytd.

out to the NATURE. :] yea man!

then later in the night to cafe del moar.

it's s e n t o s a day.

nothing special over at the cafe del moar.

it's just like some hang out place at the beach :]

with beds and daybeds around.

maybe cause it's nighttime already

and that the toliet has shower rooms.
hahahaaaa.

simple day at the sentosa.

nice scenery.

and so, i cant wait to get my camera in my hands SOON.

:]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

okay, aftermath is i think i gotten myself some heatstroke or

smthg lidat. -.-

i just feel like eating tons of COLD WATERMELON,

COLD FREEZY DRINKS and stuff.
NO FOOD for me these few days.

just feed me with all the cold stuff.

hahahaaaaaaaaaa.

:]

yea. :]

cool people.

Im losing the grip of you.
Im losing the power of you.
Im losing. Im losing soon....

Im going to start running. running away.

I keep stopping the urge to prompt that topic.
ARGH.
but well, it's still not bad either.
:] i guess we are still alright in this state.

Work starts to be alittle more fun each day.
despite the never ending workload.
my collegues have been suffering more than me.

funny people around.
nice e-mails around, like from mahmod!
haha. he's a funny uncle. :]
thought he would blow off when i send wrong name. HAHA.
then shipping bunch of guys.
and that BLUR GOGGLE uncle.
and afew guys to drool at.

to gs and nic:
hey. i saw my BLUR GOGGLE uncle today.
and that he looked very blur with the goggles on.
looking at fruit and choosing fruit.
then when he paid and walked off,
his wintermelon dropped onto the floor.
HAHAHA.
then he picked it up and checked if his melon is ok
with his BIG GOGGLE on.
LOL. :]
uberly cute to the max.

and i havent got the chance to wear the goggles on.
i shall do it one day and purposely walk pass the HIGHLY dangered
area. :))
before i leave that place.

so yea. you can see that i'm starting to catch some fun in my workplace.
:)

afew cool guys to drool at too.
hahahahahahaha.
which i realised recently then.
not bad la huh.

today is the 15th!
it marks the end of CNY.
it also is the Chinese Valentine's day
it's also the full moon night
it's also a thursday.

tonight, the full moon gona brings a feeling of loneliness
atleast to me.
:(

silent night.

i seriously want to get a camera soon.
so i can start shooting around, with val sometimes too.
and i realise my hse area has perfect spot to take photoshoot.
like theres just this railway track afew blocks away from me.
old shophouses afew blocks away from me.
so just look at these.
isn't this gona be good good spots for phototaking?
uh huhhhhhhh :)

last note,

Happy Chinese New Year for the last one,
Happy Chinese Valentine's too.

have fun eating rich balls away~

:)

and to qiqiqi and a ting!
i misssssssssssssssssss the fruit cake at Marche seriously.
so seriously
damn seriously.

i fall in love with it!

and come on, give me a guy.
LOLOLOLOLOLOL
for this 2008.

i desperately have the urge to message.
message.
message.
hold on to the hp. type it and the HUGE urge to hit
the send button.

but in the end, i always didn't and end up throwing it
into draft.

when then can i send it?

im afraid that after i hit the send button, that's the end of the world.

i'll make the situation even worse.

but at the same time,
i desperately want to know alot of things.

How's you doing.
Whether do you still hold thoughts of me.
and stuff that's like personal and not for my audience.

ARGHHHH. GOAR.

work the 2nd week.
still cant get the hang of it.
but somehow or rather i do.
especially the part when i can walk around
to the shipping department.

and now i know what kind of job im looking for.
:]

dinner-ed.
walked around.
and i got myself a damn old tee.
LOLOOLOL.
but well, the size was like abit tight -.-

simple day after work.
just to create some L I F E.

tmr's back to WORK again.

GOSH. :

as much as i know
i still love you. i still think of you.

even when im stressed over struggling to stay floated in my workplace.
lol.

but i know these are all useless.
and im just too tired to think about it anymore.
except for the few occassions that u popped in my mind.

i had tried my best. my very best.
all my might. all my energy.
all my hope.

it seems useless now.

i all drained up.
it's as dry as ikan bilis.

i just want to sleep everyday after workkkkk.

damn tired. gets tiredddddd x2 that easily
ever since i started working.

ahhhh~~~~~~~~~~

i need SLEEP. FULL SLEEP

gosh.
this means that i cant be able to watch TV shows, online longer
shop longer and eat the food i stocked at home more.
means its like out from home. and by the time i got home.
my eyes are so dried up and i got to strain my eyes till
my eye bag look like puffy fish.
then cant wait to really get bathed in just like 5secs
and then lied on the bed and sleep.
its just like -.-
no quality time for me to eat, sleep and online.
HAHA!
all i want for is a very long sleep. :]
a full long sleep.

and hey. cny is not yet over.
but just tell me why this yr's cny is sucha boring, quiet and
mono one.
just tell me why.
TELL ME WHY.


great day out with qiqiqi~ and a Ting!
haa.
marche.
and yesh. ooooooww.
their cakes are heavenly o nice.
:]
and damn i forgot to take down their nice photos.
the fruit cake is pretty colourful and nice and yummy.
solid serving as well.
the fudge cake is just nice. not too sweet.
and of cos it's chocolately.
:]]]]]]]
oh god.
im sure going back for their cakes again.
their FRUIT CAKE.
wooohoo.
and maybe i'll just settle bx's present by treating a cake.
HA!
at the same time, i could kill my temptation as well~
:]

good food, good people.
bad energy power, bad timing spent tgt.
LOL.

tired la.

and i killed and grabbed a bag out of m)phosis sales.
not bad huh. :]

and gosh. it's only sat and im like stress over the workload
im going to start doing on monday during mon.
that.........
i dreamt of it ytd night.
oh gosh.
im stress over whether im able to handle the workload starting on mon.
becos its like it's going to be ME that runs the major daily reports for customers,
reports status and stuff.
OMG!
important stuff which runs by temp staff initially and now it's me.
i just cant get off the thinking of what's going to happen on monday.
like running dono how many company's report and then email to them?
then fax?
then status?
-.-
PLEASE BLESS ME THAT I CAN HANDLE IT WELL AND SMOOTH ASAP.

it can just get so stress.
on top of that, i didn't absorb much from handover.
bcos everybody is just so busy.
and i got to buck up on my english command.
cos i'll be like replying to customer's email.
and the customer is like one person, it's a COUNTRY, MAIN COMPANY.
ARGHHH.

tell me. im not the only one struggling?

completing work within the hours of worktime.
OH MAN.
please dont let me dream of it again tonight.
i need SLEEP.

and stop it stupid running nose.
recently i just catch a cold practically every midnight.
and i got to like wake up and sneeze for how many zillion times
and blow my nose like never ending then get back to slp.
some flu bug attacked me only during midnights.
cough too.

-.-

some lack of proper slacking kid blogging here about her stress.

okay. for commerical reasons,
i couldn't blog in details about attachment.
wanna know more, you can ask me anytime.

just in short and sweet notes,
it's only the 3rd day.
and theres quite alot of stuff going on and LOTS of things to
do everyday and learn.
cause i got to like absorb from the handover BY THIS WEEK.
and then besides learning, i got lots of things to do on hand.
that makes me having overtime like ytd and today.
but well, good welfare i can say. ask me more.

and the place consist like 90% of guys. OMGOSH!
haha!

okay. so im considered lucky.
that i can to get at chinese restaurant with my department's
staff and managers.
omg!
say im lucky.
haaa
though im like the youngest over in the department and everyone
just seems to be like my uncles and aunties. haha!
and im like the niece.
=P

HAA!

okay.
do ask me more.

and im tired everyday -.-

i need LIFE!

lonely quiet empty cny this year.




and tmr is gona be a big big day
=(

There's many things that i wanted to tell you.
but there may not be chances anymore.
things that i've learnt and realised.
things that i wanted to share with you.

maybe it had turned one sided.
that it's time to put a full stop to it.

i dreamt of him.
and its a +ve one.
does that meant something?

gobbling and eating away~
CNY goodies are goody lovey.
muhahahahaha.

im going fatter each day in this manner.
lol. X)