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the cold breeze makes me feel like taking a walk. a quiet one
so that i could reminiscence. however, the rain started to pour heavier
each time.i perfectly like this weather now. though its coldddddddd.

i dono where to start on it.
Nways, the following part may be abit to myself.
not to my blog audience.

i certainly hope that you would know that
i still carry you in my heart and mind whenever i goes.
while im trying to breathe in new air, theres this little creature
and shadow running in my mind. and that's you.

they say that failed relationship is essential for one to grow. indeed,
i grow. but does that mean that there's no good ending after you learnt it
and grow through it? yes, u may say there will be good ending but with another
different better person. but hey no, i just wanted someone i've been with again.

will that mean that failed relationship makes you grow but at the same time,
you gona lost that person that makes you grow forever and ever?

i collected and placed each of them together.

as time goes, both parties may tend to be more demanding? may easily
be triggered and bored of all the nonsense and put up with one's nonsense.

when conflicts occured, and a serious one.
that could meant that both parties had grown up, different perspective in life.
after time of putting up with each other's nonsense.

probably in this stage, it's called love had mature. both parties had matured too.
therefore, it causes different opinions and stuff which is different from the beginning.

those sweet, loving days. "i dont mind your nonsense".

once relationship is stablised, grow as time goes.
definitely both will grow together as the relationship as well as the love.

BUT.

after each has realised, each has grown up, each has changed as each grow up,
each has matured, love has matured.

and the side effect may be sick and tired, fall in feelings.

but will there be a day when, each realised how love can be different and
how love matures and grow which is intangible.

and after all these, both can get back?

and that this is just part of how love grows.?
初期阶段- 爱快萌芽 -萌芽了。

maybe love is just like how a person grow up.
love grows too. in intangible form. as time goes.
you and me never know how love look likes, how love come from.
the only thing we know is that love is in a form of emotional expressions.

it's just like how a person grow up. in between during puberty stage,
there are alot of unstability, uncertainly and emotional unstability.
but once this stage is cleared, everything is back and okay. and may be better.

love can be break down into stages.
during its introduction stage, this is where love is blind, love is numb.
everything is wonderful and beautiful. everything is like perfect as long as
with you around. lovey dovey and that love is in the air. i dont mind your nonsense
i dont mind your bad habits.

in this stage, it allows you to further understand your partner and sees them in
various angle. in and out of them.

this stage put you into a test to fully understand each other and if it's going to be
working out well.

if you cleared this stage,

here comes the growth stage.
where slowly, you and i grow. there'll be times when frequent conflicts, quarrels popping out.
i cant stand your this and that. putting alot of your own temper and putting your own
usual way of doing things into your partner.
it's just like getting sick eating chicken rice everyday.

this stage put a test to whether are you able to handle things well together with your partner?

then here comes the most hard to understand stage.

Maturity stage.
when situations like "i cant stand your nonsense anymore" "i cant stand it anymore"
"i am sick and tired of all these".
unstability occurs in this stage.
the duration may be long or short.
this is where love grows as one grows.
love is grown together as one grows. as it is found in part of your body.

this stage put you in a test.
if after all these, both of you realise that we have all grow up.
perspective of things changes.
and after the unstability over, all of you can get back together.
strong as now each of you know what is really going on.
you had cleared this stage.

bad incidents is just a part in the maturity stage.

is that how to say it?
what will results in my maturity stage?
when will it end?

will he be holding on strong and think at it?

is that how to say it?
damn. im struggling to express all these thoughts into words.
which is seriously a HARD task for me. -.-
dictonary, come into my mind now.

uh. i dono.


i tried to breathe in new air, stepping on cement concrete floor w/0 you around.

this weather makes me wanna go for a walk maybe at...... botanic garden or somewhere.
which i can enjoy quietly in the tranquil beauty of nature.

i misses you.